This weekend is memorial weekend, as I hope all of you would know, and since it's a holiday weekend with the holiday falling on a Monday, the husband has a 4 day weekend! So we decided it was time to stop delaying and postponing and procrastinating the potty training for the 3year old twins (almost 4 year olds). I don't have the mentality to deal with all the accidents. I'm glad Craig is a more patient person than I. He's been great with the kids for 99.5% of the time. He's calm and understanding and explains things a lot better than I do. I'm very thankful for him, especially during this time.
I haven't really had a good weekend. I've had a migraine the entire weekend, my patience has been nothing, I've hardly gotten any sleep, and now aunt flow is trying to make her monthly visit. This weekend could be a lot better to say the least. If that isn't bad enough, I feel as though I'm losing a friend that I've been close to the past year. I'm having difficulty with my life right now. I'm not a happy camper, and I think it's because I've literally run all the energy out of me with having these kids. I've lost me. And the only one who can find me is me. I feel that a big part of finding me is letting out all of the frustrations and venting so I can let it go and try to continue on. Yet I feel as though I can no long vent to those that I have been for the past year to few years. I find this difficult because I no longer have an outlet... I need an outlet, need to find one that will be productive and do what I need it to do. But I don't know where to start to look for the right kind of outlet for me. Blech...
Tomorrow, we will try something different for potty training, 1-2 minutes on 10 minutes off rinse and repeat.
~me
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Friday, May 20, 2011
Broken Bones = Broken Promises
Howdy Neighbors!
So this evening my little Fefe (aka Felicity) broke her arm. Not 20 minutes after we yelled at her brother for climbing over the arm of the couch she's doing it and falls and gets a buckle break. When you throw your arms out to catch you and your bone "buckles" under the pressure and weight of the fall. My poor baby. She is the first one with a broken bone. I've failed from keeping my little one safe. Now I understand people break bones, it happens, it's a part of life and we all heal. But still no parent wants their kid hurt. I took her to the ER thinking it's probably just badly brusied at most maybe a slight fracture, (which the nurse was like "well a fracture is a break" which is true but still doesn't seem as serious) to come to be told no she broke her arm and them come back after reading the films saying it's a buckle break.
Felicity didn't sleep at all today, so once we decided we needed to take her to the er she falls asleep almost as soon as the car starts moving
We get there and she's progressively getting happier and happier. Once she gets her soft cast/splint (I think he called it a sugar tong) she's in full play mode.
Needless to say, everyone thought she was just too cute and funny! And surprised that this happy little girl has a broken arm. We get home about 3 hours later she eats dinner and now is curled up on the couch watching Tinkerbell (or how she likes to say it "think-er-ell") The Lost Treasure.
Well I'm off to clean up a bloody nose and then cuddle with my little itty bitty aka Fefe aka Felicity until she falls asleep. Tomorrow POTTY TRAING YAY we will have a good weekend we will have a good weekend we will have a good weekend we will dammit we will!
^.^
So this evening my little Fefe (aka Felicity) broke her arm. Not 20 minutes after we yelled at her brother for climbing over the arm of the couch she's doing it and falls and gets a buckle break. When you throw your arms out to catch you and your bone "buckles" under the pressure and weight of the fall. My poor baby. She is the first one with a broken bone. I've failed from keeping my little one safe. Now I understand people break bones, it happens, it's a part of life and we all heal. But still no parent wants their kid hurt. I took her to the ER thinking it's probably just badly brusied at most maybe a slight fracture, (which the nurse was like "well a fracture is a break" which is true but still doesn't seem as serious) to come to be told no she broke her arm and them come back after reading the films saying it's a buckle break.
Felicity didn't sleep at all today, so once we decided we needed to take her to the er she falls asleep almost as soon as the car starts moving
Needless to say, everyone thought she was just too cute and funny! And surprised that this happy little girl has a broken arm. We get home about 3 hours later she eats dinner and now is curled up on the couch watching Tinkerbell (or how she likes to say it "think-er-ell") The Lost Treasure.
Well I'm off to clean up a bloody nose and then cuddle with my little itty bitty aka Fefe aka Felicity until she falls asleep. Tomorrow POTTY TRAING YAY we will have a good weekend we will have a good weekend we will have a good weekend we will dammit we will!
^.^
Apple?
So I shatter my iPone once again, but this time it's the front panel (aka the screen) and dreading the replacement fee I back up my phone and then take it in to the apple store and to much my surprise because it is the first time there was an issue with the front panel they would WAIVE the replacement fee! HOW excited was I???????? ESTATIC! Fast forward to today. I go to sign onto my WOW (yes I play world of warcraft don't judge me) account and I go to pull up the authenticator on the new phone (not realizing that it's not only conntected to my phone number as well as a serial number on the phone and on the authenticator application) and come to find out that I can't use it because the serial numbers now don't match up and blah blah blah. SO I go to my account via the web to see what I have to do to remove the old authenticator and attach a new authenticator and I can't do that because I need to email (using their email form) them with an attached file of a government issued ID. SO Now I have to scan my ID (mind you I do not have a scanner) make sure it's passes the size requirements along with stating the issue i'm having with the authenticator before I can have them verify I am who I am and remove the odl authenticator so I can put the new authenticator on before I can sign into my account.... Too much work to do for a game right now.........
Oh and btw I have to rescan all of the movies that I had cataloged in my phone (over 600 already cataloged) ... I just have to keep reminding myself that at least I didn't have to spend a 200 replacement fee at least I didn't have to pay the replacment fee if I repeat it over and over maybe all this extra work will be ok.
I GOT MY RING YESTERDAY!!!!!!!
How excited was I about that??? ESTATIC!!!!
please excuse my lotion needing hand!!!
I LOVE it. I've been eyeing it for the past year, and talking with it with a couple of my friends and even mentioned it to craig here and there saying I love this ring and that I want it. Well finally I decided to bite the bullet and just get it and I must say it couldn't have come at a better time to lift my spirits (even if it is just something pretty for me to have on my finger) the smallest of amounts.
WE were going to start the 3 day potty training guide today, but because I hadn't slept in like 50-60 hours I decided to sleep today and we will start it on saturday (tomorrow) and I'll just do day 3 by myself since craig has to go back to work on monday. I"m nervous but hopefully they will get it fast and we wont have anymore pull ups or soakings or whatever (I do realize accidents happen, but it wont be EVERYTIME)
My head is killing me. I've taken excedrin to try to curb this constant feeling of my head wanting to explode but it's not working. I think I'll go lay down for just a few minutes longer before it's time to start cooking dinner.
More to come later.
Oh and btw I have to rescan all of the movies that I had cataloged in my phone (over 600 already cataloged) ... I just have to keep reminding myself that at least I didn't have to spend a 200 replacement fee at least I didn't have to pay the replacment fee if I repeat it over and over maybe all this extra work will be ok.
I GOT MY RING YESTERDAY!!!!!!!
How excited was I about that??? ESTATIC!!!!
WE were going to start the 3 day potty training guide today, but because I hadn't slept in like 50-60 hours I decided to sleep today and we will start it on saturday (tomorrow) and I'll just do day 3 by myself since craig has to go back to work on monday. I"m nervous but hopefully they will get it fast and we wont have anymore pull ups or soakings or whatever (I do realize accidents happen, but it wont be EVERYTIME)
My head is killing me. I've taken excedrin to try to curb this constant feeling of my head wanting to explode but it's not working. I think I'll go lay down for just a few minutes longer before it's time to start cooking dinner.
More to come later.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Fiona is so wonderful
So the late teens to early twenties I can say that I listened to a buttload of Fiona Apple. In fact, I STILL do till this day. Almost every time (99.9999999999%) of the time that a song of her comes on my playlist or on the radio or whatever I have to listen to her and I hope another comes on right after. I'd love to see her live. I need to finish buying her albums. It's 2:18am and I just closed out of youtube, from watching her movies, and I said I would go to bed over an hour ago, and here I am still wanting to listen to MORE. "Please sir, can I have some more?" Ugh tomorrow, no scratch that, TODAY is going to be hell! We have well baby appointments starting at 730 am for the two year olds. So we get to break our hearts today by making two two year olds cry by having them get their shots. The second child has their appointment at 10 (hopefully they will see them together since it's the same doctor) Also I need to make the older girls 4 year check ups and booster shots appoint along with the school physical check up I guess I should get that taken care of since I'm praying they get into pre K. Then I have a personal appointment at 1:30. I'm hoping that all of our appointments go well. It's been so long since I've had this type of appointment that I'm nervous, don't really know why, i mean we are just gonna talk, no big deal, I guess it's because I dunno what I'm gonna say. "Hey Doc! so people tell me I should talk to ya so here I am. Wassssuuuuuuppppppp? (said like in the commercial, No? Fine I won't do that) Anyways, I guess I should go to bed now....
Here Is A Little Something For Your Listening Pleasure!
Here Is A Little Something For Your Listening Pleasure!
long time no blog
It's been a helluva long time since I've been on here. I've been extremely "busy" with life and lack thereof.
UPDATES:
The Kids - The babies are no longer babies, they are 2 years old and in pull ups. Please ignore that loud ripping sound in the background it's only my heart. This is a bitter sweet phase of childhood right now. They are 100% no longer babies which is nice in the fact that we are potty training (NO MORE DIAPERS SOON HUURAAAAH!!!!) but I no longer have the tiny cute babies to hold and cuddle and say awww look at the widdle baby! And I never again will have a little baby. As most of you know after having my second set of twins (which was my third pregnancy of twins)I got my tubes tied while I was under the kinife to pull out the second set. I understand my decision at the time and I agree with it, but I do also regret it. This is huge. I don't regret anything in my life because the choices that I have made in my life have lead me to where I am today, not too shabby if I say so myself. But completely cutting out the option to possibly get preggo again is a bit harsh on a females psyche. I regret it and I think I will regret it to the day I die. oh wait this is supposed to be about the kids lol lets get back on track. The older ones will be 4 in less than a month. LESS THAN A MONTH!!!! OMG... They have been pre-registered for prek. We are STILL potty training them. (SHOOT ME NOW) Craig is taking off on friday and c ome hell or high water those two are finishing their potty training this weekend I swear to god I will not leave this weekend unless they are in bed or they are finished being potty trained! Then next weekend is a long holiday weekend and Craig has off again so the babies will be fully potty trained then. That is the goal. That is what will happen (and if it doesn't it doesn't but at least I have a goal and a plan)
The Hubs - The hubs is the hubs. That is all.
Me - I'm ok. I'm overwhelmed with housework. It's never ending and when having 4 toddlers in the house, it's nearly impossible to keep food off of the floor and now it's ANT season. *heavy sighs* I"m combatting ants with 4 toddlers. With no help. Who is doing all the cleaning? Me. Who is doing the laundry? Me. Who is picking up the toys? Me. Who is vaccuuming? Me. Who is cleaning the bathrooms? Me. Who is doing the sweeping? Me. Who is going to mop? Me. Who is going to scrub the walls? Me. Who is going to clean all the bedrooms? Me. Who is going insane? Me. *breaks into hysterical crying fit of rage* Evidently I've been spiralling into a depression. And close ones have brought it to my attention that I need help. Professional help. And on one hand I agree with them. Yet on the other hand I wanna say "you don't KNOW what it's like. You don't know what it's like to have 4 toddlers close in age and you are the only one there throughout the day day in and day out, you don't know what it's like to try to keep up with the housework, you don't know what it's like to be married to a person who doesn't talk (about ANYTHING) you don't realize that me venting or running away on various nights to hang out with "you" (being the few people that I run to hang out with) is how I'm dealing with the stress of having the two sets of twins who take everything I do and ruin it, the stress of being in a relationship where my partner starves me of communication, the stress of the day in and day out responsibilities that I took on 4 years ago." Yes I need help. I NEED my kids to be potty trained and to pick up their toys, I NEED to not be the only one cleaning, I NEED communications more than "How was your day" small talk in my life, I NEED a vacation from the bullshit. And now it just seems like I'm whining about my life.
I love my kids, I love my husband, I love my family, and I love my friends. I'm just done sometimes. I need to be lulled. I need some calm, soothing. It's not me losing control, I'm very much in control. I just need the bullshit to stop. So to ease the minds of my friends and family I've made an appointment to speak to someone. (we will see how that goes, because it has been so VERY helpful in the past *note the sarcasm*)
Well I'm off to vaccuum the friggin living room because hey no one else will do it so might as well be me.
UPDATES:
The Kids - The babies are no longer babies, they are 2 years old and in pull ups. Please ignore that loud ripping sound in the background it's only my heart. This is a bitter sweet phase of childhood right now. They are 100% no longer babies which is nice in the fact that we are potty training (NO MORE DIAPERS SOON HUURAAAAH!!!!) but I no longer have the tiny cute babies to hold and cuddle and say awww look at the widdle baby! And I never again will have a little baby. As most of you know after having my second set of twins (which was my third pregnancy of twins)I got my tubes tied while I was under the kinife to pull out the second set. I understand my decision at the time and I agree with it, but I do also regret it. This is huge. I don't regret anything in my life because the choices that I have made in my life have lead me to where I am today, not too shabby if I say so myself. But completely cutting out the option to possibly get preggo again is a bit harsh on a females psyche. I regret it and I think I will regret it to the day I die. oh wait this is supposed to be about the kids lol lets get back on track. The older ones will be 4 in less than a month. LESS THAN A MONTH!!!! OMG... They have been pre-registered for prek. We are STILL potty training them. (SHOOT ME NOW) Craig is taking off on friday and c ome hell or high water those two are finishing their potty training this weekend I swear to god I will not leave this weekend unless they are in bed or they are finished being potty trained! Then next weekend is a long holiday weekend and Craig has off again so the babies will be fully potty trained then. That is the goal. That is what will happen (and if it doesn't it doesn't but at least I have a goal and a plan)
The Hubs - The hubs is the hubs. That is all.
Me - I'm ok. I'm overwhelmed with housework. It's never ending and when having 4 toddlers in the house, it's nearly impossible to keep food off of the floor and now it's ANT season. *heavy sighs* I"m combatting ants with 4 toddlers. With no help. Who is doing all the cleaning? Me. Who is doing the laundry? Me. Who is picking up the toys? Me. Who is vaccuuming? Me. Who is cleaning the bathrooms? Me. Who is doing the sweeping? Me. Who is going to mop? Me. Who is going to scrub the walls? Me. Who is going to clean all the bedrooms? Me. Who is going insane? Me. *breaks into hysterical crying fit of rage* Evidently I've been spiralling into a depression. And close ones have brought it to my attention that I need help. Professional help. And on one hand I agree with them. Yet on the other hand I wanna say "you don't KNOW what it's like. You don't know what it's like to have 4 toddlers close in age and you are the only one there throughout the day day in and day out, you don't know what it's like to try to keep up with the housework, you don't know what it's like to be married to a person who doesn't talk (about ANYTHING) you don't realize that me venting or running away on various nights to hang out with "you" (being the few people that I run to hang out with) is how I'm dealing with the stress of having the two sets of twins who take everything I do and ruin it, the stress of being in a relationship where my partner starves me of communication, the stress of the day in and day out responsibilities that I took on 4 years ago." Yes I need help. I NEED my kids to be potty trained and to pick up their toys, I NEED to not be the only one cleaning, I NEED communications more than "How was your day" small talk in my life, I NEED a vacation from the bullshit. And now it just seems like I'm whining about my life.
I love my kids, I love my husband, I love my family, and I love my friends. I'm just done sometimes. I need to be lulled. I need some calm, soothing. It's not me losing control, I'm very much in control. I just need the bullshit to stop. So to ease the minds of my friends and family I've made an appointment to speak to someone. (we will see how that goes, because it has been so VERY helpful in the past *note the sarcasm*)
Well I'm off to vaccuum the friggin living room because hey no one else will do it so might as well be me.
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